The Empty Heart

Someone left, again. 

And this time is totally a different situation. 

I'm sure that I'll be kinda emo these days or weeks... Especially when I'm in crowds.

Just came home from the orientation organised by the seniors of JPA scholars. 

It was supposed to be very fun. And exciting. With new friends around. Having some outdoor events.

But I have to admit that I'm not happy. I didn't smile and laugh from the bottom of my heart even people were telling jokes and making fun of others. 

I felt so empty. I know why. I know what brought me to the emo world which I seldom visit.  

I'm trying to convince myself that it's not because of the departure. IT IS because of you're growing up Carmen. You're facing the reality that you've got to be independent. 

When you care about somebody, you'll be over the moon if that person cares about you too.

Hold on. What if you're wrong? I learned this from my lecturer. And it seriously makes sense. "So what if you're wrong? SO WHAT?" 

Yeah, so what? I'm gonna wait for the 21st. And somebody could still follow MY drama. Lol. 

It really doesn't matter if you're wrong. Because it's always right to try. Seek for courage.  

Now, Carmen is in a new world to be explored. Haha.

I'm so sorry to my parents as I don't have homesick at all. Yes, I enjoy my life here. So far so good!

It's undeniable somehow, I miss you. Everyone of you. :)

We're gonna do our best in pursuing our dreams 

and lives we dream for.

To whom I love,

LIVE YOUR LIFE ALIVE !!