Pouring rain, pouring heart.

People's mindset changes with time.

One experiences many stages, from birth, schooling and university to marriage, family and aging, throughout his lifetime.

At different phase, we think in a different way. 

Looking back at your childhood, what did you want?

A couple of years back then, you had something but you did not cherish and did you ever regret of it? 

Today, what do you desire? 

Tomorrow, what would you dream of? 

Your thoughts tomorrow may be totally different from today's.

Even what you're thinking now might not be the same as the next moment. 

Yesterday I was a college student, the day before yesterday I was a high school student and before that I was just a little kid. Today I'm a freshman. Tomorrow I'll be a doctor (hopefully) and then a wife and then a mom and so on.

I'm currently really contented with my life because I'm surrounded by lovely people including my Perakian old friends, Johorian sisters and Cherry Bang, KBU buddies and for now, Tro11olol and Har11em Shakerz. 

I realized that I've been neglecting some of them. I don't like to cast aside them. It's not that they are unimportant anymore, just that the circle of friends I'm concentrating on in my university life is Group 11. It's inevitable as all of us have to live in the present, live with people who contact with you the most. 

Group 11 <3

Har11em Shakerz! It's like Tro11olol's child. Hahaha. 

We, seniors are really glad to have these kids who are so smart and adorable as our little juniors. Love them THIS (arms wide open) much! Tro11olol will be upset if our kids are not staying close. Seriously. 

Mom of the Har11em Shakerz!

So same wish for them like last year, God please let them stick together as a family. 

I hope this girl will do her best to keep everyone bonded. In fact I'm pretty confident in her. ;)

I'm used to I used to.

I used to be damn introvert. But I've been very talkative and outgoing lately. 

Sometimes I feel confused. Which one do I prefer? I don't know.

I love to chill. I love to stay quiet and watch and listen to people's stories. However, it's impossible for me to keep the original me in such environment. Yes, I agree with what someone has told me. I must speak out. I must be active. 

It's alright. I still can choose to be mute when I'm with my good friends or when I'm home.

I used to decorate my face with positive expression.

Carmen today has lost the 'skills'. Lol. I've been showing my mood very often on my face. Gosh.

I am an Arian. I don't like to be a hypocrite. 

When I hate somebody, I won't try too hard to hide my hatred. 

If I don't want to sit with him on the same table or to even see him, I will not let him appear in my sight. 

Of course this will not happen unless that man is really really a bad person who cannot be forgiven for what he has done to me or my family or my friend. God bless him.

I love. I am loved. I appreciate.