Well, time has come for soul-searching.
People tend to think that they are the ones who know themselves the most. However, life is so much more than this. Sometimes you might overlook what's within you and there'll be a person or two or even more who probably know about you better than yourself.
There are individuals who come into your life for only a few minutes, days, months or even years. Each of them makes an impact on you no matter how long they appear. There are passers-by who you do not bother, but who knows? They in fact may have left some footprints and made changes to you.
Something struck me yesterday and it has added to my worries about the coming future. I think I'm having a serious problem, (or to make me feel better) let's call it a huge challenge, for my life as a medical student.
I was like: "Omg. How am I going to get through this? If it's born in me, how do I go against the nature? Is this a hint from God that I need to give up before things get worse until I cannot afford its price?" I don't know.
"It takes time and practice to perfect it." I remember Kiaos' words. (I do keep everything in my heart and I miss him so badly) I know, I know it requires time but I do not have much of it. What if I still cannot master it before I pass the exam? My parents may be broke or double broke! How now? Tell me what to do, Kiaos. Or anybody?
What made me feel bad was, I realized that singing has affected me as well. That's my favourite activity and now you say it does some disadvantages for my studies? Gah. I almost blacked out when I heard it.
Despite those comments (I believe they were constructive ones), the enlightenment was to my satisfaction and I really have to thank Dr Sow. She's an outstanding, excellent person. No doubt about that. And yes, I must learn how to express myself using my own words.
I do agree that peer support is important as it may probably aid you through the hard times especially when you're away from home. It is also because I am that kind of person who needs friends' encouragement and I am glad I have it.
There are people saying that if you have faith you can achieve your goals and succeed. I second that as I believe in Law of Attraction. Sometimes it is inevitable that you may be afraid of losing your balance while you're walking on a steel line at some heights. I have faith though. I know I can do it!
Okay fine I'm just trying to convince myself at the moment. I guess this time, I need more confidence boosts.
Dug out this from my FB profile (100% originality):
" You would push me down the hills, but I would climb up and hold the tree trunk tightly;
and in the end, I would stand straight on the top of the world. "
28 September 2010
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