Love to Cry

Let the tears stream down your face...

I love to cry.
I cry when I'm happy or sad...
Honestly, I wonder as if the name (汤嘉雯-there are so much water) given by my parents affects me.
Till today, I don't know this is a good thing or not...
It makes my eyes always well up with tears and blur my vision.
I look like so fragile and not strong enough to face problems.
In another way round, crying is the way I release stress and wash away frustrations.
So, what do you think? Should I try not to cry next time, when I get something touching or sad?
I don't know... I'll just choose to follow my heart.
When I want to cry,  I'll cry.
When I don't,  then I'll try my best to swallow back the tears...

Crazy moments

Last night was quite unforgettable.
Playing mahjong with friends was a 'warmy' event.
After that, we got out of my cousin's house and ready to get some special drinks.
What so special? Coconuts. Fresh coconuts.
There was a short coconut tree in front of the house. No one owned it, I guessed.
One of us took out a knife from the kitchen.
The boys plucked some coconuts and then we enjoyed the good drinks :)
I had not tried such fresh coconuts before. That was crazy, at least to me. But I really had fun at that very late time.
Then we went to my aunt's house. Chatting with them was relaxing... We talked so much that it was out of my expectation!
What I realized was they were all good kids with a kind heart :)
God bless them, please help them back on the right way of life...

Aging

Just now, my aunt and I accompanied grandfather to the clinic for a body check-up.
I suddenly realized how hard it was to take care of an old people.
Grandfather got stroke last year.
Grandma had lost a lot of pounds taking care of him...
How heart-aching...
It seemed like the one who took care of someone suffered much more than the one who was taken care of.
My aunt and I were frustrated to see grandpa's attitude. He was lazy to put effort on walking and other movements.
He was not willing to use his own energy to make himself healthier.
I wondered this was because he was already tried his best or just wanted to depend on grandma in the rest of his life.
Becoming old is natural... but would there be someone around you, taking care of you willingly when you are sick?
To be honest,
I... I don't wanna be alone when I become an old woman...

Carmen's Diary

Here's somewhere to write to myself.
With words and pictures and musics, maybe...
I may not update this everyday of my life, just once a while.
But hopefully, I can put all my feelings whenever I want to...
whether it's something happy, sad, boring, interesting or exciting :)
So Carmen, let's get started!