:(

What?
I just wanna go home. I feel so lonely now.
Helpless. Miss my buddies.
I need you.
Beruas, the best harbour ever.
I wanna go home.

;(

The Cycle.

Heard that my buddy's mom had just passed away. 

She had cancer. 

Auntie was a good person to me.

Despite the rumours, I still like her very much. 

How homie when I went to their place,

she'd invite me to drop by again.

She witnessed my growing-up. Together with his son. 

Her sudden death shocked me. It was so unexpected.

I still cannot believe that auntie had gone. I cannot see her anymore. Sigh.

Did she go with peace?

My dear must be really sad now. How am I going to console him? 

I don't know what to say. I don't want to spout nonsense and hurt his broken heart.

Goodness, I WANNA GIVE HIM A BIG HUG :( 

My father's best buddy also was dead years ago. Cancer too.

He was back to God,

leaving his wife alone with their son and daughter. 

Life doesn't really suck.

At least my 'mother-in-law' still has the filial children's company.

Plus, there is a newborn baby now.

God gives you something more precious in return when you experience a great loss.

Can you ever imagine that the goodbye you say may be the last word told to a person?

It is admittedly undeniable that,

death is the most heart-aching news than anything else. 

You can do nothing but accept the reality that your loved one has left.

You need to let go 

and move on with your new life without him or her.

If life is so short, why are you trying to hold back? 

Follow your heart and do the things that you want to.

GO AHEAD my friends.

Child of God.

Hello the Child of God,

I always believe that we all have the blessings from Him.

Every single thing in life is a gift.

We are born to face the sweet and bitter events happen

before we live our next life.

I am looking for what am I heading to. What about you?

Do you sometimes feel lost of aim to live?

Why are you here reading my post?

Why are you doing the work on hand now? 

Things that we do are actually the missions given by God.

I am often afraid that I cannot achieve the set-goals.

The main problem right under my nose is about my academic performance.

Well, I was over the moon when being offered the scholarships

which everyone dreamed for. 

But I am NOT secured a whole offer till degree levels.

What now?

Things are getting more complicated and beyond my control.

The story to be told in the future

may be different from the previous version.

How? Can I do it?

I need your advice. Someone please talk some sense into me.  

In various ways...

The darling buds of God are always being loved.

Follow MY rules.

Why don't you do it in my way?
Each time, your manner make me frustrated.
Although I'm born in this way too, I know what is better and what benefits.
Why wouldn't you teach me the right attitude?
I'm so sorry that I have to say that.
But I truly hope that we can be more efficient.

Moonlight Shadow

The warmest night in BU.

Dinner at guys' place. 

Spaghetti with Prego & tomato sauce & mozarella cheese 

(thanks to Darren and... those who helped to cook), 

siewmai from Sibu, kuih Ah Kok?! from Kelantan

(credits to Gordon and Un! Haha)

  

We then had a little fun with lanterns and candles at late night.

It was such a wet blanket 

as when we were starting to enjoy the full moon view at the park

the security guards came to chase us out. 

12 am! Time's up for fun! 

Great.

We've got the chance to be Cinderella.

Adventurous indeed. 

Kept everything and headed to girls' house.

Mooncake fest. 

Another supper in this week. 

I don't think I can fit in the bridesmaid's gown on Juanes wedding dinner.

All of us were quite united tonight.

Awesome! 

We rocked the way! 

It was a good time for everyone of us to get closer,

to strengthen the friendship bond. 

Guys were hilarious sometimes.

But Prince Ronald wasn't enjoying the moments. 

Of course, left home on Mid-Autumn Festival. 

Understood.

There was a little surprise : Kah Nian's arrival.

He finally joined us. 

Perhaps the comments on the card worked.

We were here. Everyone involved.

Hey FIS, stay in ONE CLASS. 

Unity.

Trust. Believe.

It is hard to gain a person's trust. 

Therefore please appreciate the one who trusts you.

You don't take them for granted,

as once you lose their confidence in you,

you lose someone's love too.

You can be the best. And the worst.

However, 

in your loved ones' eyes,

you're always outstanding.

Believe & have faith in yourself.

You can do it.

;)

Once a friend, forever a friend.

ONCE A FRIEND, FOREVER A FRIEND.

This is Carmen's Principle.

Dear friends,

I won't let you down. 

Although we're apart, 

our friendship will sail the deepest ocean and overcome the physical distance between us. 

You're always on my mind, in the bottom of my heart.

So just cast aside your worries. 

A heart-warming lunch with friends was simply amazing!  

' It doesn't seem that you've left here for quite a while.' 

' Yeah babe. I'll still give you the same Carmen even after I leave for very long time. That's me! '

We took loads of pictures, Non-stop. Girl power! :)

Well, I believed our craziness flooded the whole restaurant. 

Their green tea must be running out of stock after we dined. Haha. 

I hugged everyone today I supposed?

Claim your hug from me if you didn't have one.  

Hey, I know you guys really love me. I know that.

I love you too. 

I'm having a great life there. No one bullies me. 

Since high school, you've been protecting your mommy, me, from bad things.

But now, I'm no more under your wings. I'll take care of myself. 

You guys also understand me. See, I am independent. 

Best moments. Girls' talk. Chit-chatting is always enjoyable. 

' Carmen, any admirer? '

' Nope. Lol.'

' What? Seriously? I can't believe it.'

I think girls like me more. Haha. Thank you Ong Liyin for the confidence given. 

I know you love me too, very much. :)

Cherry Bang. 

Shall I show you some pictures? 

Here we are again! 

The Loud Speaker. We almost sang our lungs out.

The Cherry Bang. 

Precious time. 

We all miss the really old times. 

Looking back to the past is just to remind us to appreciate.

Moving forward into the future is what makes our friendship more strengthened. 

The cherries! My adorable sisters!

Carmen, remember?

Life goes on.