人生无常。

生命不是气象，没办法预测。

昨天在诊所待了两个小时半，让我看见了一件突发情况。
应该说我幸运，还是那位大叔倒霉？

他和我一样等了好久都还没轮到他。
眼见他胸口痛得忍不住在那里呻吟，最后快没知觉了护士才让他见医生。而当时的他已经得靠几位好心人士抬他上轮椅再推进听诊室了...

过了少过半小时吧，可能打了针，那位大叔手握一封信件（是referral letter吧）和他的太太笑容满面地走出诊所，准备截德士。不到两分钟，突然间，他整个人抽筋似的倒下！看起来像是中风。大家立刻冲出去又把他带回进去见医生。

这次，从门缝中我隐隐约约看见医生在做CPR。进行了十多二十分钟吧，不曾停止过。虽然也叫了救护车，由于它的效率非常‘高’，最后它抵达时（四十分钟吧）便轻松多了，可以慢慢来，反正也只须证实死亡。或许早点载他去医院，他还有生存的机会？真无奈。


生命是如此的脆弱，嘣一声，一个人就消失了。
或许更恐怖地，毫无动静，一个人就离开了。

真的，有时间就多陪陪家人吧。也请你别忘了珍惜你身边的朋友。




还有，我很佩服的是颜医生事后依然很镇定，继续听诊。可能这种事早已变得芝麻绿豆，没什么大不了。
以前的一面之缘也许就是铺陈今天这次机缘吧？希望他愿意传授点功力给我啦！:)

11

Fate?

When I first came here, 11 has become my lucky number.

I stay in 11th floor.

Even my unit is 1-11-1.

Recently when I look at the watch or clock, I always have been seeing 11:11.

I am so committed to it - 11.

People think I should take a break.

Well, I have to admit that sometimes humans do get tired of holding on to something.

I am no exception.

Every time when I am tired, I always ask myself: What does 11 mean to you?

Almost...

Everything.

It's like I have been stamped with number 11.

I feel like I belong to 11.

Lemme show you some love in 11.

11 really cares.

Who would concern about you not having enough energy and get you your favourite bun in the rain?

*woof*

Who would notice you want the fried carrot cake and suggest to order just to accompany you eating it?

*meow*

Who would ask you 'how are you' very sincerely even though he always sees you around?

*yourmajesty*

Little things count.

And look at this lovely Shaunny!

I thought he wouldn't care about this matter already since he did not show up during the audition. 

Now this explains why he wasn't there haha. 

There's no big deal of not entering finals. I've moved on when I left the stage on that night itself.

There were so many of 11s supporting me. That's more than enough.

And if you really understand me, you should know that I truly have no regrets.

I just wished to perform that song.

To me, what I've done was all wholehearted and I was happy about it. For real. :)

It's not just a run.

I was over the moon not because that I won a medal actually, okay partly due to that but what made me smile so brightly was that I completed the 5km long run without any rest! Haha I never experienced such a perseverance of mine! That's the spirit, man!

Most of the time I ran with the Tro11ers, whom I'd stick to for the rest of my medical school years. 

They are the ones who will fight with me till the end, also not forgetting the FIS-ians.

I remember seeing a phrase saying that, "There are different people who walk with you through certain points of your life, but no one will finish the journey with you. You have to complete it on your own." I couldn't agree more.

It's like when you're running, you can't follow others' paces forever. When the time has come, you need to let go and return to your own pace. But deep in our hearts, we cheer for each other. :)

No matter how fast or slow we run, we will eventually meet at the finish line.

Ah Sou and I got a medal for ourselves!
Ah I must mention how I like her telling me her feelings which I think she seldom tells people. Quite a number of times already. ;)

Change for the Better, Live in the Present.

Sports
Exercising has become a part of me nowadays. Morning jogs, badminton and even bowling are my sports activities with my awesome uni buddies. There was so much fun in enjoying the evaporation of sweats from skin surface. It's like your skin is breathing! *woah*


Fading jawline
Unfortunately, lately I've been consuming too much food. I'm starting to accumulate fats again! I can feel that my face and body becoming rounder omg! I must, I must keep my appetite small now! And crazily exercise!


Blame this orientation
Why? During the first two orientations, I lost weight. But for the orientation which has just ended a week ago, I have gained some pounds! I couldn't believe it! Omg. I thought it was a golden opportunity for me to slim down more. Seems like I was totally wrong...


Dumped Maggi
It has been more than a year that I abstained from instant noodles. This is one of the biggest achievements on the list. But, oops. I feel like having a bowl of garlic chicken 出前一丁with a 'spring' egg now! :O Someone cook for me please!


Food loyalty
I was looking for yo'good at The Store. There were various flavours such as cranberries, strawberries, etc... So many choices... But no! All I wanted was just almond chocolate! But I saw none of them on the shelf. I gave up. Well, I still need to survive. So I got myself my old love - Nestle Cornflakes for nostalgia. Lol.


Expanded circle
I know I'm slow in progression of this. However, I think people are gradually entering my circle. Or shall I put it in this way, that I'm stepping into theirs instead? Either way, I'm cool with it. As long as we can communicate in harmony. ;)


Muddle-headedness remains
After so many life experiences(actually not many lol just wanna make it sound nice), I'm still muddle-headed at times. I don't like people doubting my capability and look down on me. So I will try to prove my ability. But sometimes nature is difficult to change. Perhaps I'll be 傻大姐 for a lifetime? I will make effort to minimize that side of me anyways, not in front of my close friends though. Haha.


Tro11ers' small gathering
Spending time with Tro11olol is relaxing(even now cooking to me is not very stressful dy). One of the special things about Tro11ers is that our events have always been heart-warming. Differing from many other groups, our theme is usually so homey as we cook our own food, with love. Hahaha we're so cute right? We often do something simple but fun with the presence of each other. We had a mooncake festival celebration last night. It was just a simple dinner prior to lanterns and candles fun! Luckily the rain did not put out our burning passion of lanterns walking...


Boggle
This is so awwwwww. It's been a very little wish of mine to play Boggle again since Standard 6? I gazed at the box which was kept high up in the cupboard. I tip-toed like a small kid to reach the box. Somebody saw and understood me and then gave me a hand. I have been longing for years! Like finally, I got to reminisce the green day again. Sighs, time has just slipped through like that. "You're a grown-up now, Carmen."


Dislike departure 
Talked with my dearest Ciawen this afternoon. Despite the lack of contact, we still love each other. Knowing that she'll be leaving for UK in one-year time, I feel unbearable to let her go but at the same time I am so damn glad that she has the chance to spread her wings and soar in the unlimited sky there.


Delicious music
Let me end this post with White Flag. It's a song which I got to know from one of my favourite seniors whose birthday was yesterday. I shared this song with Ciawen today. She loves it like I do! And her response was like mine. Hahaha. Omg I miss her. <3

庆幸的是，我是白羊座。

老天爷终究会心疼你，扶你一把。
昨天我遇见令我想要跑前去拥抱的人。

一个是这里第一位听我谈心的学长，另一位就是我最亲爱的王俐允！
一见到他们，我便冲上去抱紧他们。

热泪盈眶。

有很多话想说，可惜大家都没空。

但是，在这种时候能抱着这些给我力量的人已经很满足了！
我不要求多！

最近你会发现我很喜欢抱人，因为拥抱转送勇敢与力量。
大家一起散播爱！还有，珍惜身边的人吧。加油。

Tiles of feelings.

Girls.

I agree with that. Hahaha. No gender discrimination. Sons are precious too. Everyone is a gift from God. It's like a never-ending chain: she's a gift to him, he's a gift to her, she's a gift to her, she's a gift to you, you are a gift to me, I am a gift to someone and so forth. Children are your treasure when you have lost everything as blood is thicker than water. 

Tro11olol

Well, this is a great seating arrangement. Two guys in front showed the same pose lols! And the waiter was pretty good at taking angles. The whole picture looks very cool. You can feel the love and bonding between us although we were not huddling together or hugging one another. I always feel like I am so belong to Group 11. Nowadays I often choose something related to 11. Perhaps it's fate? I don't even need to pick. For example, during the recent Genting trip, I got number 11 for both back and forth tickets! Okay, I'm kinda superstitious, but that's really cool! 

Meow

This girl is perfect in her good temper and personality. We are of the same kind - Arians! It takes no stress and worries at all talking with her. Because you can say anything in front of her. Not only that, she always does some warmhearted things for people. It is difficult to meet someone who is so selfless and so concern about friends. And when you have one like her, you wouldn't wanna lose one with such genuity. 

Post EOS trip

Awesome time I've had, wish they felt the same. Although it was very rushing, I am still contented because at least, we had fun as a group! You don't know how difficult it was to complete this trip. Besides, we faced a lot of problems throughout the planning and preparation. Fortunately, we still made it. Not to forget mentioning, thanks to my babe. I'm so blessed for having a BFF who is willing to love whom I love. 

Thumb up and best luck!

Changed a new pair of spectacles. Needless to say, it is still red. Hahaha. Hopefully it brings good luck to me as I'm getting exam results soon. I think I will be giving hugs to my friends at those moments. I remember on OSPE day, I got the very reassurance into my eyes and right into my heart. I kept that reassurance inside me and I'm gonna bring it with me when the results are in my hands. Kinda nervous but must have faith! It's gonna be a long day. I wish everybody all the best. Let's pass Sem Two together! Continue fighting, comrades!

The fall and rise.

Sometimes, I'm afraid of myself when I stay silent.

I have so much to spill out but if I do, I might not be able to hold back the emotions.

I have so many things to think of now. 

The same doubts arise again. I am confused.

I have changed a lot, improved a lot.

Perhaps it's not reaching there yet? I don't know.

The used-to-be stressless kid has been so weak lately.

She's helpless at times. But still, she must be tough. She must get through this no matter how.

At the end of the day, courage is the only thing that accompanies you till the success.

Nothing can bring you down except yourself.

Believe yourself, have faith and you surely can make it.

It's time to do it, Jiawen. Take it down. 

 

I love this picture so much. Just like how I love these people. Really hope to stay with you all till graduate! Law of attractions! 

Ain't nobody got time for blogging?

Nope, I got. Hahaha.

Have not been talking much these two weeks.

Therefore I really need to express a little here just in case I got depressed.

Counting down for exams.

Three more days to go!

Things are going okay. Not too bad. To me, all this while I consider my work as productive already.

Remember I was a stressless kid? Not anymore since college year when I've accepted the scholarship.

Everyone is saying: You JPA student, won't fail one.

And I'm like: Dafuq?! JPA? It's either life or death, dude. 

Ever since I signed the contract, I have been expected this load of stress. I thought I could handle and cope with it very well. But I forgot that Money is an Evil. 

The purpose of being a scholarship holder is to lighten my parents' burden.

Well everything has two sides. It's like standing on a line high up in the sky. I must walk through it steadily with good performance, otherwise I fall and end up with nothing but bring more troubles not only for myself, also dad and mom. 

I fear of falling because I don't wanna put them into more troubles. They have had enough.

I remembered a word of my friend, "I wanna be rich. I don't want my kids to fight for scholarships like we did. Even if they work hard, they might not even get a cent of it. I want them to be free."

To some extent, I agree with her. I don't want my children to be very stressful too. It is unhealthy. But in reality... Stress is inevitable. 

Dear kids, mommy will try to give you a good life. I can't promise, but I will try, alright? :)

I've been calling my parents almost everyday. For no purpose. I just need to talk. They felt my stress I think. A little joke yesterday while talking to my mom.

Mom: Good luck for you in the exams!

Me: Good luck for YOU. 

Time is ticking by so quickly; time is crawling by so slowly.

That's contradictory, right?

However, in a blink of eye, today will be exam day, then today will be holiday. 

Time passes by without warning.

Today I am trying my best. God bless me, please. And bless my comrades.

I hope and I believe, all of us will leave the exam hall with a smile shining on our faces, as bright as the sun. Good days await! Ah... Gambateh! Btw, thanks for the 征能量! :)

Cartoon?

I think I don't need to tell which movie I've watched.

Yep! It's these minions!




Despite the lack of time, I decided to go for this show anyway.

I didn't expect much about it. However, it's surprisingly good!



It's really true that laughter is a better stress reliever compared to tears. ;)

Remember I read through some info about how 10 mins laughter helps in burning calories.

Hmm, at least, I've burnt a whole bunch of fats last Friday.


I laughed as hard as others.





Eh, this show was specially dedicated to YMCA I supposed? Hahaha.

First sign! There you are!

The ugly pet dog is called Kyle! We burst out in laughter when we heard that!



But of course, needless to say, our Kyle Kyle is way more prettier!





How beautiful was God's arrangement? It's been a while since four of us last watched a movie together.

And when finally we came to the long awaited chance again, the show ended with a song of YMCA's.

I gave it a try again after like... 6 years? Hahaha.

Hmm. Which cartoon next? ;)

Oh by the way, greetings for July! Welcome! Please be kind to us!

Every person has a different point of view in seeing certain matters.

Every person has his or her own ways.

Perhaps I am too kind?

Or am I over friend-centred? 

Actually I had some hard feelings because of disappointment.

However, that's forgivable.

It's not that they don't love me, it's just their carelessness.

And I shouldn't take it to my heart.

Nothing actually happened. LOL. O_O

*bang my head on the wall*

But I am just too used to my style,

considering of others before thinking of myself,

although sometimes I am a little selfish.

Many of my sisters have told me before, not to be too truthful to people.

" Do not 'invest' all into relationships because you'll never know if they are cheater or backstabber.

If you give too much, in the end you'll get hurt. So try to protect yourself. "

Well, sorry to myself as I still prefer to be good.

Because I am born this way!

:)

Thank God I still have one (even if there's tornado in IMU),

who treats me like a dear (only my dad does that) and never fails to make me laugh... 

and cry. :P

I was thinking: not every friend of mine actually cares every bit and piece of me.

At that moment, I so hoped that this genuine silly genius budday was by my side.

"Eh Carmen don't bully your bf!" said someone last night.

I was like: "Hey man, he is no bf. We're way beyond that okay!"

Awww...  lazy to explain dy. Way too complicated hahaha! :*

A little bit sensitive after waking up from a bad dream.

I'm just grumbling with some mood swing just so I can update my secret cellar.

Kamendong!

You don't complain about problems, 

instead you focus on what your friends have done to you since the very beginning.

Yep.

Still love them anyways.

After all I'm a forgetful person.

What happened just now???

Hahaha! <3

珍惜眼前人

It was, in fact, a small matter.
But I really had a wave of chills running down my spine yesterday.

Well, I should have thought of the very possible reason of the incident. I actually did.

However, there were a lot of things that put me into a paranoic state.


There were so many criminals happened nearby recently.
And apparently there is no more gender discrimination when it comes to crimes.


"Where's our boss???"

"What if he's kidnapped? Not very possible."
"What if he's robbed? What if he trips and falls? What if he is unconscious?", my heart echoed.


Everybody seemed calm. So did I, but definitely not on the inside.
My nerves were curling up like my hair!


No replies.

No phone calls.

"Chill, he may just be sleeping in the library." I was reassuring myself.

Sooner or later, CBON began to worry... you could see anxiety on our faces.

Cyanide decided to check if his car was still there and search for him. I stayed.



It was a very bad feeling when you could only wait for any news.

What's worse was you had to do what you were supposed to do at that moment and stay cool.


As for last night, I had to do something which could easily stress me out - cooking.
Cooking gas was finished off... Things were in a mess... Sudden heavy rain... Everything were bad signs.

Gosh. The ambience was scary. I couldn't concentrate.


When everything had gone into turmoil, fear crept in...

"If I were to lose a friend just like that, how am I going to survive the hopelessness? I cannot imagine..." Perhaps I overreacted. Okay I did. Lol.

"No, no, no. Everything will be fine. Smile, law of attractions."
That was the only thing I could do.



When Cyanide finally found our boss, I felt so weightless, so relieved.

My heart screamed, "Thank God!" Cyanide must be 'phewed', too.



Cyanide the girls and boss were back. And then we had dinner in a pretty quiet mode.
Guess CBON were tired... 身心疲惫... Well, perhaps Boss was unhappy about something too? No idea.


No matter how, as long as everybody is safe and sound. That's what I wish for.

Growing up.

Many people hate growing up.
Well to me, it is fascinating despite the cold world outside.

Perhaps it is because I have been pretty independent since young?

People, unlike me, only start to leave home around this age.
Therefore they need to make adaptations for the changes.

I am already used to it.
I might be born with the surviving skills as well.

Lately, I found that I am really growing up.

I have some changes in my thoughts and perspectives. I start to keep track with news and politics. I try to appreciate things that I used to hate back then.

Besides, many things are done by myself, not only literally.

And I would need to tell no one regarding my whereabouts and doings, not even my parents who are so unworried until I don't feel their concern(I know they still love me though).


However, I am fortunate enough to have these people around me, be it mentally or physically.

There is quite a number of them who are always caring and thoughtful, who never leave me alone when I am down, who sayang me till my other babes jealous...





Love can be in many forms.
It can be transferred from one to another via different ways, different relationships.

One of the most important relationships in life is friendship other than kinship.


How could there be someone to clear up the bed for you when you accidentally fall asleep?
How could there be someone who help you cover your cold body with blanket in the middle of the night?

Only your papa mama would do that for you?
Nah. My roommate does that to me too. It sounds dayumm gay but I always feel so loved when I wake up and begin to recall how I went to bed. (okay don't tease me after you read this, gayyy)



How would you come across someone's mind?
How would you be able to affect someone's mood and feelings?

I agree that only those who care about you, who trust you can be hurt by you.
But in the end they will choose to let go their pride because you are way more important than that. #justsomerandomthoughts




Needless to say, I own many beautiful friendships and I'm thankful for that.


Most of them are the source of my motivations, power and courage.
They are shaping me into a better person and bringing my life alive.


Let's fight together for our future, my buddies and sisters. :*

Last chance? Hopefully not.

One phone call.
Without second thought, I said yes.

Naive, am I?
I've heard a lot about his changes. All negative comments.

Yes, people do change with time.

But as you know, one does not give up or a heart does not die until one sees or experiences it by himself.
Therefore, just let me be.

I actually doubt about the reason that he told me.
However, I gave it one last try to test what kind of person he is.

If everything is a lie, our friendship will be gone.

Gone. 



People may think that I'm stupid.

Well.

I don't give a damn about what I give. Money's nothing.
I care about how he treats our friendship. That's it.



Hey.

You can fool me.
But please do not ever misuse my trust towards you, my dear.

Otherwise I'm sorry, goodbye. No mercy.

We were once so close.
I really wish you to be on the right track of what you're doing.

Please, don't let me down.

Top of the world.

Perhaps the title above sounds a little bit exaggerating.

However, when you look down from the summit of a mountain(or just a hill),
you'll get what I'm trying to say.

Nicely edited by Your Majesty Ray.

Many said that Tabur Hill is a dangerous place for hiking especially for beginners.

People are not encouraged to climb there.
Even if you insist, you're actually required to report to the police.


Although we were a little worried about it, we did not hold back.
Instead, we gave it all out and decided to take up the challenge.

We did not make any report. Plus, none of us got adequate rest the night before we went there.

Thank God for blessing this group of daring kids.



It was a great experience to most of us who were amateur hikers.
What fascinated us was the nature in the jungle as well as the breathtaking view which brought our mind to the stress-free state.








Here are some beautiful pictures snapped by Evie.
They are beautiful because of the love in them. Yep.

20th April 2013

Group 11 was at approximately 330m(Googled lol) above the ground! We rock! ;)

I don't think we could conquer Tabur Hill successfully without a good leader.

And this time...

Our leader was Raymond The Boss! Spot his confident face?
With his guidance, we climbed up and down with minimal injuries.

He really did an awesome job, no doubt about that.

"That rock is slippery! Try to slide down a bit."
Woah, I was not bad too. Haha! To be frank, I was quite steady eh. My heart did not experience any tachycardia or palpitation even when I was on the edge of rock. :P

Sorry that sometimes I was a bit slow. That was not because of me being afraid, but I was thinking and choosing my way. Ahaha. Paiseh la.







Throughout the trip, I saw how we helped one another physically and mentally.

This was the hardest part to me. With only a rope to reach down.
Perhaps it was because we used the wrong way.

The guys from Group 11 are all very caring and protective. Not forgetting the sweet girls too. We've made it to the top hand in hand.

I am really grateful to have them. :)

Look at their brotherhood!

I was so glad to see this scene(in fact there were more, only this moment was captured).

Despite some conflicts weeks ago, eventually they still stay close together. I prefer my juniors(my kids) to be more cheerful. :)

Check this out! Haw my gawd! That's our little Minyien!

Nah, you thought she was weak? Don't judge people by their size!

Her determination would always surprise you. Like how she wowed us on that day.
The station in this photo was the most challenging one for her(most of us too) I supposed?

She took quite a while to overcome her psychological barrier but in the end she made it!
You don't know how cold her hands were at that time!

Nevertheless, she's a tough girl indeed. Her ability is out of your expectation. ;)

Dreams are sky-high. But as long as you keep your commitment towards them,
you can bring yourself closer and eventually reach them.

Other than the achievement, one more thing that had made my day was the love among us.



"Be careful, people!"
"Are you okay? Do you need any help?"
"Give me your hand."
"Trust me."
"You can do it!"


My lips were pulled into a U-curve when I heard all of these. :)

The care and concern were so genuine.

I really love seeing people offer and receive help. I love it to be a two-way stuff.
You can barely feel it nowadays because the cruel reality is consuming our sincere heart and nature.

Twenty.

Episode One

This is gonna be a brief post as life has been a little hectic to me.


Yep. Today's my BIG day!
And I finally get to wear my Taylor dress. Hopefully it's not too over to wear it on this special day, to me.

My friends gave me a cool early surprise last night and it was awesome.
It was very unexpected. My eyes welled up with tears of joy.

One thing I was grateful for was, what they had done in order to make my birthday a remarkable one.
Although I did not really know the details about it, I understood that it needed plans and efforts.


What made it more touching was some of them who live far actually stayed back late for it.
Also, I know that those who suck at telling lies tried so hard to cover up their real faces and put on a temporary mask. Hahaha. :P


I'd been thinking of a combined of all. I guess they made it to me.
I'd been wishing that somebody would sing Leehom's song for me on my birthday. And I think they did it too, a group of them.
I'd been hoping for a family kind of celebration or gathering. I had it too.

And so, hugs and kisses were gifted to almost everyone (some are huggiephobic lol) who joined last night.

Pic stolen from Novin! He's so pro in editing photos now! Hahaha.

Of course, needless to say, I received some sweetness from my Johorian hot stuffs too.

Jie called me and the phone call was intermittent one but sweet to the max. Her voice was always filled with warmth and assurance. On the other hand, my precious irreplaceable Ciawen wrote me a love letter with a few terms in it. What a lawyer. She also bought me a necklace! I love you forever, like ever. ;) I know there'll be more wishes to come.


An arigato, Je t'aime for everybody in advance.
I truly appreciate everything I have right now.




As I have said, I sayang myself, not perasan yeah. Hahaha.

Therefore I had myself a (considered) huge birthday present in advanced, which was a ticket to Leehom's concert! God bless me. I even watched him within a stone's throw distance for about 2 hours! Moreover, we had eye contact and interactions! Twice!! First concert in live, in life. Unforgettable.


Special thanks to my roommie, the little tiny mushroom.
She has been very tolerant and patience with me since... since we became friends.

Like my sister. Saya cinta padamu!

I love you too. Although I always say that, I still mean it okay! ;)



Twenty. I wish it will be a great year with all these adorable people in my uni life.
Not to forget my babes in hometown and Jaybee, miss them loads too.

Twenty. A beginning of my adult life.
I wish everyone all the best, all is blessed. :)


Muax! :*

Pouring rain, pouring heart.

People's mindset changes with time.

One experiences many stages, from birth, schooling and university to marriage, family and aging, throughout his lifetime.

At different phase, we think in a different way. 

Looking back at your childhood, what did you want?

A couple of years back then, you had something but you did not cherish and did you ever regret of it? 

Today, what do you desire? 

Tomorrow, what would you dream of? 

Your thoughts tomorrow may be totally different from today's.

Even what you're thinking now might not be the same as the next moment. 

Yesterday I was a college student, the day before yesterday I was a high school student and before that I was just a little kid. Today I'm a freshman. Tomorrow I'll be a doctor (hopefully) and then a wife and then a mom and so on.

I'm currently really contented with my life because I'm surrounded by lovely people including my Perakian old friends, Johorian sisters and Cherry Bang, KBU buddies and for now, Tro11olol and Har11em Shakerz. 

I realized that I've been neglecting some of them. I don't like to cast aside them. It's not that they are unimportant anymore, just that the circle of friends I'm concentrating on in my university life is Group 11. It's inevitable as all of us have to live in the present, live with people who contact with you the most. 

Group 11 <3

Har11em Shakerz! It's like Tro11olol's child. Hahaha. 

We, seniors are really glad to have these kids who are so smart and adorable as our little juniors. Love them THIS (arms wide open) much! Tro11olol will be upset if our kids are not staying close. Seriously. 

Mom of the Har11em Shakerz!

So same wish for them like last year, God please let them stick together as a family. 

I hope this girl will do her best to keep everyone bonded. In fact I'm pretty confident in her. ;)

Maze.

Life's pretty cool these days.

I've gone through the final exam, in a blink of an eye. 

And now I'm on the second week of orientation which will be finishing soon. 

Yeah, exam is gone, semester 1 is gone, orientation is soon-to-be gone. 

Time is ticking by so quickly every second.

Whether good or bad days, they have been keeping us from holding on to our principles and beliefs.

We tend to forget the purpose of what we're doing.

We tend to forget who we are. 

However, God loves everyone of us. 

He places awesome people around us to remind us about what we are and concern about us.

We're neither lonely nor helpless because we are surrounded by a bunch of friends and family.

That's His amazing arrangement.

And we should cherish it even if we have hardships towards any of those relationships because it's not easy at all to gain them but so easy to lose instead. 

Thus, I'm still sticking to this: Forgive and Forget. :)

And I'm truly sorry...

Sorry to whom I've ever let down.

Sorry to the relationships which I've ever done any hurt to.

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Till then, people. 

Enjoy the present and look forward to the wonderful future!

There'll always be a lighthouse for us.

Surprisingly, I thought I made it.

I wanted to prove to a person with all I could.
I however was certain that it was more to proving it to myself.


And I told myself I could do it. Thank God I really did.


There were times I forgot about the Law of Attractions.

I might be lost in the middle of nowhere.

But the next moment.
When I was still insecure.



I saw hopes.

And then I was enlightened deeply.




It's like a lighthouse showing sailors the right way to their desired destination.

And we all are sailors. 
















A person deserves something that he/she has fought for it.

Unfortunately, life's unfair. You and I understand about this.



I may not believe in what I'm given. So I may question about it.

Am I just having unnecessary doubts?
"I have no idea." *shrugged*













What goes around comes around. 
That's pretty true.

When you treat people in a good way, you would receive the similar or even better treatment.



I prefer to give more than I take.
I would try to do more when people have done so much for me.


That's the way I repay them.


I would not reject their help.

What I would do is, I would keep that in mind and remind myself,
"You owe him/her another favour." 

I'm alive!

I've been staying away for weeks already.


I think... It's time to get back on track.

Hmm. Yep.


As usual, I would like to tell something via music.

This is my current mood.

That's it. 

I'm okay. Just some random thoughts at random moments. 

How I wish I could tell him everything I wanna say.

Nope I am no emo girl. No worries.

It may take up to years. 

Or a person is needed to replace and overtake this feelings. 

Whatever.

Having a relationship is merely a bonus.
I will get it when the time has come.




Friends. Family. Love. Laughter. Life.


For now, I'm contented with what I have. :)

01/01/2013

Time has just slipped through my fingertips.

Look at the date.
It's another year to write about our own life story.
Let's embrace a new adventure with our open arms and an open heart.

My life has been a roller coaster in 2012.
It's a long story that you might not have the patience to listen to. So I will stop telling it unless people ask about it. Hmm. I don't wanna dwell on it anymore.

Just let bygone be bygone. Hatred please go away please go away. *peaceful mind*

God knows who should be the ones to be blessed.






New Year Resolutions?
There's a list actually, lols. I'll just keep them at the bottom of my heart. ;)


Most importantly, as usual, I wish everybody healthy because Health is Wealth.
Take care of your mind as well as your spine!







There were a lot of remarkable memories that I will not forget.
It was not easy to make it there but in the end I did it. And I love the current me. Thank God.


2012 - A year which I have smiled, laughed & sobbed through, now I officially bid you goodbye.
With no regrets, I now greet you a happy new year, 2013. Please treat me kind!