Every person has a different point of view in seeing certain matters.

Every person has his or her own ways.

Perhaps I am too kind?

Or am I over friend-centred? 

Actually I had some hard feelings because of disappointment.

However, that's forgivable.

It's not that they don't love me, it's just their carelessness.

And I shouldn't take it to my heart.

Nothing actually happened. LOL. O_O

*bang my head on the wall*

But I am just too used to my style,

considering of others before thinking of myself,

although sometimes I am a little selfish.

Many of my sisters have told me before, not to be too truthful to people.

" Do not 'invest' all into relationships because you'll never know if they are cheater or backstabber.

If you give too much, in the end you'll get hurt. So try to protect yourself. "

Well, sorry to myself as I still prefer to be good.

Because I am born this way!

:)

Thank God I still have one (even if there's tornado in IMU),

who treats me like a dear (only my dad does that) and never fails to make me laugh... 

and cry. :P

I was thinking: not every friend of mine actually cares every bit and piece of me.

At that moment, I so hoped that this genuine silly genius budday was by my side.

"Eh Carmen don't bully your bf!" said someone last night.

I was like: "Hey man, he is no bf. We're way beyond that okay!"

Awww...  lazy to explain dy. Way too complicated hahaha! :*

A little bit sensitive after waking up from a bad dream.

I'm just grumbling with some mood swing just so I can update my secret cellar.

Kamendong!

You don't complain about problems, 

instead you focus on what your friends have done to you since the very beginning.

Yep.

Still love them anyways.

After all I'm a forgetful person.

What happened just now???

Hahaha! <3

珍惜眼前人

It was, in fact, a small matter.
But I really had a wave of chills running down my spine yesterday.

Well, I should have thought of the very possible reason of the incident. I actually did.

However, there were a lot of things that put me into a paranoic state.


There were so many criminals happened nearby recently.
And apparently there is no more gender discrimination when it comes to crimes.


"Where's our boss???"

"What if he's kidnapped? Not very possible."
"What if he's robbed? What if he trips and falls? What if he is unconscious?", my heart echoed.


Everybody seemed calm. So did I, but definitely not on the inside.
My nerves were curling up like my hair!


No replies.

No phone calls.

"Chill, he may just be sleeping in the library." I was reassuring myself.

Sooner or later, CBON began to worry... you could see anxiety on our faces.

Cyanide decided to check if his car was still there and search for him. I stayed.



It was a very bad feeling when you could only wait for any news.

What's worse was you had to do what you were supposed to do at that moment and stay cool.


As for last night, I had to do something which could easily stress me out - cooking.
Cooking gas was finished off... Things were in a mess... Sudden heavy rain... Everything were bad signs.

Gosh. The ambience was scary. I couldn't concentrate.


When everything had gone into turmoil, fear crept in...

"If I were to lose a friend just like that, how am I going to survive the hopelessness? I cannot imagine..." Perhaps I overreacted. Okay I did. Lol.

"No, no, no. Everything will be fine. Smile, law of attractions."
That was the only thing I could do.



When Cyanide finally found our boss, I felt so weightless, so relieved.

My heart screamed, "Thank God!" Cyanide must be 'phewed', too.



Cyanide the girls and boss were back. And then we had dinner in a pretty quiet mode.
Guess CBON were tired... 身心疲惫... Well, perhaps Boss was unhappy about something too? No idea.


No matter how, as long as everybody is safe and sound. That's what I wish for.